Spent
from I'll Be Fine by John Louis
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lyrics
If only the drinks understood what I’ve been through
If only my attempts to blot you out didn’t hurt my health
If only I learned how to love what I died to
Then maybe I’d learn how to hate what I do to myself
‘Cause I remember trips we took like we just got home yesterday
I revisit our old pictures like the headstone on our grave
I remember gifts I gave you on your birthday at the beach
The engraving on your watch that marked our anniversary
When does the healing start?
How long do I have to feel this low?
Why don’t I protect my heart?
I can’t remember ever feeling so alone
Why doesn’t God show His face when I need Him to?
I wish I had the strength to ask Him where He went
‘Cause then maybe He’d welcome me home, like a father would
And maybe I wouldn’t be sitting here, oh, so spent
‘Cause I remember back in Sunday school that He was in control
So I confessed Him with my mouth but that was fourteen years ago
I remember nights when I would cry alone beneath the moon
Oh, if only I could find the strength to ask Him, “Where were You?”
If only I’d seen how you looked when I told you
That I wouldn’t leave you no matter how dark it got
Then maybe I’d have seen it coming, my lover
Maybe I’d have avoided becoming somebody I’m not
If only my attempts to blot you out didn’t hurt my health
If only I learned how to love what I died to
Then maybe I’d learn how to hate what I do to myself
‘Cause I remember trips we took like we just got home yesterday
I revisit our old pictures like the headstone on our grave
I remember gifts I gave you on your birthday at the beach
The engraving on your watch that marked our anniversary
When does the healing start?
How long do I have to feel this low?
Why don’t I protect my heart?
I can’t remember ever feeling so alone
Why doesn’t God show His face when I need Him to?
I wish I had the strength to ask Him where He went
‘Cause then maybe He’d welcome me home, like a father would
And maybe I wouldn’t be sitting here, oh, so spent
‘Cause I remember back in Sunday school that He was in control
So I confessed Him with my mouth but that was fourteen years ago
I remember nights when I would cry alone beneath the moon
Oh, if only I could find the strength to ask Him, “Where were You?”
If only I’d seen how you looked when I told you
That I wouldn’t leave you no matter how dark it got
Then maybe I’d have seen it coming, my lover
Maybe I’d have avoided becoming somebody I’m not
credits
from I'll Be Fine,
released April 3, 2020
Written by John Louis Schwallie and Benjamin Thomas Mariano
John Schwallie - guitars, bass, vocals, programming
Benjamin Mariano - drums & percussion, programming, vocals
Shane Followay - ambient guitars, gang vocals
Morgan Miller - gang vocals
Randall Miller - gang vocals
Recorded and mixed at Despicable House in Nashville, TN
Produced, engineered, and mixed by Benjamin Mariano
Co-produced by John Schwallie
Additional engineering by D. Shay and Shane Followay
Edited by Benjamin Mariano, Shane Followay, and John Schwallie
Production and mix consulting by J. Hall
Mastered by Mike Cervantes at The Foxboro
©2020 DESPICABLE RECORDS, a subsidiary of
DESPICABLE COMPANY, LLC. ALL RIGHTS RESERVED.
Unauthorized reproduction is a violation of applicable laws.
Written by John Louis Schwallie and Benjamin Thomas Mariano
John Schwallie - guitars, bass, vocals, programming
Benjamin Mariano - drums & percussion, programming, vocals
Shane Followay - ambient guitars, gang vocals
Morgan Miller - gang vocals
Randall Miller - gang vocals
Recorded and mixed at Despicable House in Nashville, TN
Produced, engineered, and mixed by Benjamin Mariano
Co-produced by John Schwallie
Additional engineering by D. Shay and Shane Followay
Edited by Benjamin Mariano, Shane Followay, and John Schwallie
Production and mix consulting by J. Hall
Mastered by Mike Cervantes at The Foxboro
©2020 DESPICABLE RECORDS, a subsidiary of
DESPICABLE COMPANY, LLC. ALL RIGHTS RESERVED.
Unauthorized reproduction is a violation of applicable laws.
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