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(April 3rd)
00:57
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Soft sound, you turn around
Eyes locked, you pull me to the edge
Maybe I should turn and run away from this
But I don’t, and I won’t...
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Everything I Need
03:00
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My head feels light
I lost a lot of blood since last night
I was cowering in her cold memory
You look good tonight
My heart’s got a hole and you’d fit just right
If you could patch me up, I just might get some sleep
Deep in your eyes, I’m reeling
You’re proof my heart’s still beating
This time, I know for sure
You’re what I’ve waited for
Feels like you’re everything I need
Have I had a bit too much?
I think someday you’ll be my bride
Dive into the abyss, my love
Confess your darkest sins tonight
Run through that open door
Just like I’ve done before
Your heart’s so reckless and lovely
(Feels like you’re everything)
I wanna know you better
I wanna treat you right
I wanna pull you closer
I wanna feel alive
Run through that open door
You’ll leave me wanting more
I’ll make you perfect in my dreams
(Feels like you’re everything)
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3. |
For Now
03:32
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Sleeping on your couch
I wake to find you’ve rolled away
and pull you back to me
Kiss you on the mouth
You open up your pale blue eyes
And I can barely breathe as you say good morning
If I could freeze this spot in time
I’d never have to tell myself, “Slow down.”
And I could live there in my mind
‘Cause, love, you make me feel like I’ll be alright
We’ll be just fine for now
You leave your door unlocked
And say to come by after dark so we can be alone
You tell me not to knock
Your roommates will be fast asleep
And they don’t need to know
What are we doing? Oh no...
Every late night, every “Baby, this feels so right.”
Every time I kiss your cheek
Every long drive, every “You make me feel alive.”
Everything is a part of me
Every hard fight, every “We’re just wasting our time.”
Every time I’m losing sleep
Every drunk call, every “You don’t know me at all.”
Everything is a part of me
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4. |
(I'm Sorry)
01:22
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My love, I miss your place
The secret nights, those blissful days
The way you’d smile and kiss my face
Say you love me - do you love me?
I’m sorry things have been so hard
I hate to be so far apart
I know I shouldn’t play this card, but I miss you...
Do you miss me?
‘Cause, baby, you’re distant and I’m worried...
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5. |
Worth It
03:34
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She cut her long hair off to her ears
She said, “I’m ready for change.”
I took the long way driving her home
Hoping to buy myself some time beside her
“I need a real man, honey. Make some real plans.”
Echoing in my head
I wanna know what’s dragging her down
I hope to God she doesn’t change her mind
Honey, you’re worth it
Looking for a heartbeat, caught up in a whirlwind
Baby, I’m nervous
Looking in your wide eyes, you’re one in a million
I grew my short hair down to my lips;
the way she likes it
Hoping appearance is enough to keep the wheels turning
Makes me wonder, “Is just my beating heart enough?”
I came out swinging like I’m trying to start a fire
With some branches and some gasoline
Hope like a phoenix in the night, we’ll arise
Lighting up what we could be
I’m feeling like a smoking gun
You tell me everything is fine
But don’t you try and save face, love
We both know I can read your mind
And with the embers slowly burning down
I’m reminded that love is blind
And in my favorite t-shirt, you kiss me like the first time
If you can believe me
Struggle through the riptide, fight my way to your side
Chasing that feeling
Looking in your bright eyes
Make me wanna change; I wanna be worth it
‘Cause, honey, you’re worth it
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The South
03:35
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Baby, I could take you with me; let’s escape to the south
No, we don’t have any money, but we’ll figure it out
When you say that leaving puts a bad taste in your mouth
To be straight, I don’t know what you’re even talking about
It was the summer of ‘16
I called you up, said I’d be there in a few
I rang your doorbell, you kissed me
I wished that moment would last an hour or two
Remember back when we both were happy?
I swear if it kills me, I’ll take us there again
My love, I don’t mean to be so black and white
But there’s a simple solution
‘Cause I know you and I know your restless heart
I could save you if we weren’t so far apart
I had a dream that your heart died
Woke up to watch it become reality
It makes you nauseous when men cry
I left the room so you could stomach the sight of me
Remember when all we talked about was love?
Back when I saved up and bought that diamond ring?
Believe me, darling, I can’t stand waking up
Miles apart, chasing different things
Honey, if I had the time, I’d take us back to the start
But I know that’s not what you want and it tears me apart
When you say I need to take the time to figure you out
To be straight, I don’t know what the hell you’re talking about
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7. |
Ready to Go
03:09
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I found an untouched city with some brand new streets
I’ve got your bags packed, baby, but you’re dragging your feet
I wanna give you everything you need
I didn’t think the hardest thing for you to chase would be me
I’ve known about you all my life
You’ve known about me just as long
Explain to me why you’re not fine with me to belong
Get ready to go, my love
I’m ready to know our new life
Get ready to go, my love
This isn’t a home ‘til you’re by my side
Oh, my love, get ready to go
Oh, Mer, your house is like a tomb
Inside your eyes, I see it all
I see the bare walls in your room
I see the boxes down the hall
I see the chain around your neck
I see the stud in your front yard
I see the wanderlust inside
I know who you are
You look at me the way you did when we first met
Remember the way my lips felt on your forehead
I’m holding out my hand, I pray you take it
I’m reaching it out to you
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8. |
Smoke
03:19
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I never said that I was bulletproof
Not sure what you expected
I guess I was destined to lose
I’m bleeding out under the crescent moon tonight
I always thought I was enough for you
When did that change?
‘Cause I was sure I was the one you would choose
I don’t know what the hell I’m gonna do
I was an oak, you were a flame
Burn me up again, burn me up again
Set my heaving heart ablaze
Take me home again, take me home again
My shivering bones could use some solace from the cold
You were my fire, you are my smoke
Honey, we’re running out of oxygen
Blow out that candle;
I don’t think you realize what you’re doing
Don’t waste the air with any useless words...“I love you.”
It’s gonna take some time before I’m fine
In my head, I’m in your room
Your sheets smell of your perfume
My clothes look better on you
Strike a match, spray your aerosol
Burn down this house and take it all
Melt me down to a skeleton
I’ll always want your touch again
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(Darling)
01:35
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Don’t you know you’re killing me, darling
with everything you do?
I’ve thought about it - there has never been a time
where I’ve been this way to you
And after all is lost, you got in all your shots
I hope that you can take a bird’s-eye view
And see through this facade of all the things we’re not
And I hope I recognize you...
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10. |
Your Eyes Were Dry
04:24
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Tell me you’re sorry
Tell me it wasn’t intentional
Tell me my feelings don’t matter at all and I’m fine
Tell me about how things will be different
Tell me you’ll change everything to stay mine
Oh, put your walls up, try to knock mine down
I’m so distant now, you should’ve known
I’m a fighter but I don’t make a sound
I am dead on the ground because
I was blind to your guns aiming at me
You stood by me, stoic, watching me bleed
And I can’t believe that your eyes were dry
I was a fool, then
I should’ve known that a wedding ring only made arguments
sting that much worse in the night
Take all my time, then
Take all the money I have and use it to attend to my bride
Whatcha after?
If I don’t matter to you, peel out fast - I won’t follow you
Take it off, throw it down, walk away
Tell me how you’re gonna take your own life
“Love you, baby. Goodbye.”
I’ll be fine
Wish I knew from the start how you’d tear out my heart
Did you know you were lying?
Did you play the part to be mine?
I’ll be fine
Your hands haunt me, tell me what we could be
But your eyes prove to me you are not what I need
And I can’t believe that your eyes were dry
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11. |
Without You
04:03
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I’m on the ropes, praying for something better
I’m sick of feeling alone; brandish that scarlet letter
You thought you could fix me
But I wasn’t broken at all
And I thought you would wise up
But I got sick of waiting for you
Bet you expected I would be back by now
With open arms, open arms
You cut me every time that you took me down
And left me scarred, left me scarred
I wish I had known right from the moment I met you
I’d feel more alone with you than without you
I’m catching glimpses of you in every dream I’m having
And so I don’t go to sleep unless I’m drunk and it’s becoming a habit
You told me you’d hold me
Then locked me in the hall outside your room
I thought you were my one true love
But I was falling for you way too soon
We fall into the trap that we set for ourselves
But we’re blind to the truth, acting like we never fell
Why do we never learn that love can lead us astray?
We just chase what we want while what we need fades away
I meant it when I said that you had my heart
But you went too far; we went too far
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12. |
Spent
05:40
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If only the drinks understood what I’ve been through
If only my attempts to blot you out didn’t hurt my health
If only I learned how to love what I died to
Then maybe I’d learn how to hate what I do to myself
‘Cause I remember trips we took like we just got home yesterday
I revisit our old pictures like the headstone on our grave
I remember gifts I gave you on your birthday at the beach
The engraving on your watch that marked our anniversary
When does the healing start?
How long do I have to feel this low?
Why don’t I protect my heart?
I can’t remember ever feeling so alone
Why doesn’t God show His face when I need Him to?
I wish I had the strength to ask Him where He went
‘Cause then maybe He’d welcome me home, like a father would
And maybe I wouldn’t be sitting here, oh, so spent
‘Cause I remember back in Sunday school that He was in control
So I confessed Him with my mouth but that was fourteen years ago
I remember nights when I would cry alone beneath the moon
Oh, if only I could find the strength to ask Him, “Where were You?”
If only I’d seen how you looked when I told you
That I wouldn’t leave you no matter how dark it got
Then maybe I’d have seen it coming, my lover
Maybe I’d have avoided becoming somebody I’m not
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13. |
(It's Done)
02:47
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You called me late last night
And your voice took me back in time
To when I had made up my mind that I loved you
God, I miss you
We talked for how long? Heaven knows
And when you did put down your phone
I listened to the dial tone for a long time
Like it was my lifeline
And I should have let you leave your name
And called you back some other day
When I was feeling closer to a man who’s not in love with you
Oh, I swear to God, I’d have spared you if I knew
That we’d fall apart and take opposing views
As hard as you try to claim I’ve lost my mind, I’m sticking to my guns
And it breaks my heart, but when it’s done, it’s done
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14. |
In Stride
04:25
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When the nights get long and I’ve thought circles ‘round you
When I don’t feel strong, I collapse; I break in two
It’s like I’m holding on to a red-hot iron ladder
I know I can’t let go; I need to just move faster
Wish I could just go faster
I think it’s time I redefine this heartache as biding my time
If I can tell myself I’m better off, I might believe it
I wonder why I run and hide from bitter ghosts I recognize
This time, I’ll hold my head up
This time, I’ll take it all in stride
Guess I misunderstood all the things I had to do
To make you care about me, to make me worth something to you
I put in all the hours, I tried to stay inside the lines
For thieves and snakes around my neck
Saying it’s my fault that I’m not fine
It’s your fault that I’m not fine sometimes
Someday soon I’ll see myself ten thousand feet above the rain
See how I carried you around until I broke beneath the weight
And I’ll take a part of you with me - forever feel your arid eyes
But I’ll throw your baggage off my back and I’ll leave my brokenness behind
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